我为勾勾狂

Doc: Personally I think that it takes more courage to be average, to be boring and just try to simulate. I think it*s more threatening to statistically normal person to act like they do. Everyone can look at a homo, like really out there, act uniquely as he possbly can, kinda homo,and feel like they don*t understand that, and they don*t need to understand that, and they never will. But if we all acted and talked and thought the same way, think the minds we are gonna fuck.
Go: You*ve heard Hitler, right?
Go: You don*t wanna be normal, you wanna be an artist.
Doc: Being a artist is so overrated though. Everyone*s a artist, or at least they think they are. I think now more people believe that the only thing separating them from fame and fortune is the finish line of a reality show. I don*t know why my voice is any more unique than any oftheirs.
Doc: I don*t wanna be different. I don*t wanna be unique. I just wanna be like everybody else.
Go: As soon as you stick you thick dick up someone*s butt, you loss that luxury.

摘自他人记录的一段对话。
同时很喜欢他说那段: 你看我在笑其实我是觉得很embarrassed不想谈论这个话题。
整部影片致敬andy warhol的 kiss eat sleep 瞬间高逼格，找到资源一边玩手机一边去看看。
Time is time was,right?

首先最想说的是，两位主角的颜都超正！而且两个男主的身高差不要太萌，简直是女王受和呆萌攻的设定。而这部片子里也有几个很触动我的点：
1.伪纪录片的手法在同志片中具有实验性和创新性，很容易让观众相信整部影片是一个”事实“。背景音乐配得恰到好处，为影片增色。而影片尺度的巧妙把握，游走在GV和情色电影边缘，乐而不淫这点很棒啊，如果单纯GV，感觉浪费这两张脸呢。至于它如何做到的，呆会儿再说。
2.“我想为你摘下帽子，让世界看到你的眼，而不是臀”。Duc喃喃自语的这句情话太动人，以至于看到这的时候，我这个心急的腐女以为Go这个世俗身份下的舞男终于能找到灵魂伴侣，但是“第一次”和“炮友”的区别和混淆，算了，豆瓣上有太多这种帖子。还是老李说得好：“情爱里无智者。”
3.Duc在被Go问到小时候有没有调情过时说的：“我想，在我成长的这些年中有很多罪恶感产生，需要隐藏。这种感觉会被发现，或者担心你以一个gay的身份长大。我猜这使我感到不自在。”这段话让我有所共鸣。在成长中，有多少事是你被告知“不行”“不许”“不应该”的？但是正如婴儿都会有性冲动，有些事是无法克制的。但由于世俗的标准，你只能隐藏。这多多少少会造成性格的扭曲，在性心理上就是所谓的性偏离了。大概这也是Duc喜欢网络性爱的原因？
4.之所以说这部电影显得乐而不淫，是因为Duc和Go在床上抱在一起时关于社会，关于同性恋的身份，关于平凡和激进的探讨。这使得这部电影不仅仅是部同性恋爱的片子，主题也有些升华。
电影里借Doc和Go的口探讨关于平凡和激进的观点很有意思，说起来多多少少有些辩证主义的味道：一般人认为同性恋和普通人不同，那他肯定有有所区别的标志存在——娘娘腔，打扮得花里胡哨，滥交，夜夜笙歌……总之你一眼就能看出”啊，那个人肯定是个gay！“这是一般社会给同性恋者的标签。
但是这种标签本身不也是平常化的吗？那么，那种真正炫酷的，激进的人生是怎么样的呢？
不是你去流浪，去逃票，去蹭饭，去叫嚣和这个体制这个社会抗衡。恰恰相反，是你进入它，甘之如饴地，enjoy it。结婚生孩子，靠着门廊灌柠檬水，拿着猎枪养着狗，去过最平常，最普通的生活。可是你心里还是一个同性恋，可是大家都不知道。或者推而广之，你心里还是葆有自己的梦想，信念，坚持。
今天恰好看到一篇帖子，也在探讨类似的问题。帖子讲的是两个不婚主义者，保持着只要不爱，随时可以分开的默契，在一起了七年，俨然一副灵魂伴侣的模样。他们没有正经工作，有的只是两个人租个小房子，相互陪伴地混着。但是迫于生存压力，男生找了一份律师助理的工作，女生也找了一份好工作。最终两个人有了车，在郊区买了房，甚至因为男生顶头上司的一番话，跑去买了婚戒。只是两人依旧没有结婚，对外则说是已经结婚多年的夫妻。
女主说也许多年后他们一直没分开，他们的小孩一定会以为他们是一对没经过反叛期、没经过思考就走进中产阶级俗套家庭剧的平庸夫妻吧。
只是他们从此选择了默默做自己认为对的事，尽量不打扰周围人的默契。
这和Doc的观点何其相似。
只是这世界上还是太多人挣脱不了束缚与世人的眼光，不可否认，我也是其中一员。
但愿经过红尘修炼，我也能成为坚持自己内心所想的人，无论是否与世俗价值观趋同。
只要我认准就好。


【以上只为影评作业】

给到5分不是因为它完美无缺，只是因为在这类电影中绝对算得上出色，至少我很喜欢。

我承认这部电影确实有卖肉的嫌疑（海报就不正经），但这绝对只是营销手段（吸引观众），毫不影响电影本身的质感和内涵。


Go其实挺聪明的，Doc各种羞涩各种萌……两个人在一起很可爱很有爱，台词也值得去品味（电影真的是值得老老实实看一遍，哎！）。其实给我最重要的感觉就是真实，真实就是我最喜欢的地方。




以下，我来回应几种批评的声音

1.不是合格的纪录片？

从来没人告诉你这是一个纪录片（主线是拍纪录片而已啊），更不可能说它是不合格。再有客气的说它是 伪纪录片，我要提醒大家注意，他是不是伪纪录片这一类别我不知道，但他一定不是痿纪录片，看待这个伪字不要带有感情色彩好么。

2.质疑分开结局的？

你确定你有在看电影么？讨论那么久激进和平凡，也有自述来暗示。小脑真不是拿来看电影的好么

3.boring？soft porn？

（kiss 那块我承认快进了）
你们不是来秀英文的，是来秀下限的~~
一路快进就为看那2mins，还以为全电影就是个卖肉，那可不你快进停下来的地儿不就是肉么？
都能跑到电影里面挑，有这闲工夫你去看片儿啊。还想要立牌坊没问题，你们难道不知道有一种片儿是带剧情的么，你们都能搜到这部电影，我相信对你们来说搜个个把片儿应该不难吧……



电影确实是见仁见智，但是我想评出三星以下的应该就是智商的缺陷了，大家没有意见吧……

I guess we all get stuck in ambivalent feelings once in a while. We want to break free from the daily grind shackles, but we constantly regard those dull constaints as the shelters from any uncertainties. We enjoy the feeling of being longing for something specific, but have we ever summoned up our courage and fought for the voice from our inner heart.
Or maybe it's just me.
I admit I'm not a seize-the-moment kinda guy. The worship of living in the present has become so ingrained. However i guess I wasn't being that qualified. I really hope that I'm the kind of person that doesn't give a shit. They probably would just kiss you whenever they feel the urge. They are super cool about venting out their feelings. They can just make up some stupid reasons to get close to you and then dump you when the fun starts fading. Will i be doing those to anybody? Probably not.
I didn't say that is not cool. I just think that why someone can do this so easily while I find that almost impossible.
i'm not a rational person, nor a conformist. I just don't know what i want exactly. I don't have a particular goal to chase or anything. Sometimes it just feels that maybe i should do something, preferably, make a difference. As for what, i have no idea.
" my obsession has grown into longing.· its like i wanna take care of him. I don't want him to make a living from the dollars of gropers anymore. I dont want him to be seen as an object by anyone but me. i'm really confused. I dont want you to hide. I want you to be free. This is um of course coming from a fucked-up almost college graduate, who has basically nothing to offer you. This is irrational. Maybe we should just get married. Maybe we just run away from the city together. You don't want to be here than i do. So we'll go to iowa. And you can just tattoo people or just pigs or whatever you do and paint and make clothes. And i will write. I'll be a writer. I love him, its not like that romantic kind of i need to spend the rest of my life with this person kinda love cause i never felt that. i dont think i have. I dont know he has really got into love he deserves. And if no one is willing to step up and i feel the resposibilities to take the job. I know im being naive. Im sure a million fags think that i can make a difference. But u know none of them did it, and maybe i will. People can change, i know that at least from my experiences. And then jusus theres his ass its like ass from another planet. And i know im not the first visitor to planet go-go-ass, it may not be number one hundred. But maybe i could be the last?"
I once said that i wanted to feel the intimacy which will last for a long period. That hasn't come true. And i still stick to that belief. Its kinda cheesy but its true. I want to know what it feels like to maintain a relationship that is real, like you can feel it when you touch the linen. I don't know im being stupid.
Actually i dont talk about personal stuff. Im not a social guy. Lol